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We, people, constantly change
Human psychology constantly changes. What you do, what you want, what you plan, what makes you happy, what makes you sad. They all constantly change.
My name, Evrim, means evolution in Turkish. When I asked my parents why they have chosen this name, they answered me “We hoped that you will always change”. I don’t know if my name determined my life, or I determined it after I hear the reason and meaning of my name. Since I am conscious, only thing I know is to change.
I changed the primary school 3 times, highschool 2 times and I was about to change my university(I almost transferred to another university and I did exchange in Latvia). I had countless number of friends and girlfriends. My friendship environment has never stopped changing. For some of my relationships, I ended because I felt like I needed to change. “Change" has become a bounding box for me, my only vision.
As far as I remember, first job I wanted was to be an astronaut. Then I wanted to be a soldier, then I wanted to be a ship captain, then ship engineer, but I studied electronics engineering. Everybody around me had an idea about what to do in future. I didn’t. When I would choose the university, I couldn’t. Because whatever choice I have made, I would want to change it. I had no idea about my future job anymore and I didn’t choose, because I would change it. None of my…
